Hunter Warrior

Wolf was a hunter-warrior. He had a fearless spirit and great courage. He went through many hard and testing times in his life, not least his loss of sight - he always believed he had full sight as a small child, but by the age of eight it was gone. At four he saw his little sister scalded to death in kindergarten - leaping on his tricycle he raced through the village to fetch his mother from the factory where she worked. At eight he was sent far from home to blind school, where he was bullied for his country accent. Setting himself to learn martial arts, he turned the tables on the bullies within two years. He had asked permission of the staff  to use the pocket money parents entrusted to the school for these lessons, and told no one about it.  He learned to live without parents, far from home, and some of his many adventures are told here.  

          He belonged to one of the old familes of the Black Forest villages, and had the right to wear the traditional costume at the annual Fasching carnival. He knew the secret places in the forest where edible fungi grew, a secret passed to him by his grandfather, Anton Weber, and never passed on.  

          He navigated by the feel of the wind on his face and the position of the sun in the sky, he always knew where he was in time and space, and which way was home. His memory was phenomenal, he remembered every bump in a road. Following his hobby, sound therapy, became increasingly difficult as technology progressed, but he only had to have a manual read to him once to know how to operate a new machine. 

          His independent spirit drove him to learn many things, and to journey far from his Black Forest home. He always kept the spirit of the hunter warrior within his heart.

Soaring Eagle

Wolf didn't often dream, or at least, as experts tell us we all dream, he never remembered his dreams. On the occasions he did recall, his dreams would be huge and impressive.  One dream he often had and much enjoyed, was to experience what it was like to be an eagle. In these dreams he would be sitting high on a mountain top, looking down over countryside much like the Grand Canyon, or the Andes - then he would take off and fly, swoop and glide through the air.  When I was visited by the Aztec, and undertook to study their calendar systems, I found that Wolf's Aztec name was 12 Eagle. Mine was 13 Lizard. (Aztecs are named for the day on which they are born. There is a 260-day Sacred Calendar, in which 20 day-names and 13 day-numbers combine once. A child is named for the day on which he/she is born.)

Wiccan Priest

When I met Wolf, I was already an ordained Wiccan priestess. This happened without my seeking it, like most things in my life. I had come to Pendle in 1982, and in 1983 I met a couple of people who impressed me very much. We met at an Earth Mysteries Group. One was Pendle Father of Nine who undertook my spiritual education, the other was a musician, Janet Cook, with whom I explored the mating of poetry and music - this led to my becoming a performance poet. PF9 (John) was a great thinker, reader and philosopher, with a vast collection of books and even vaster experience of life. His story is told in my book "Pendle Pair in Peril" (working title) - a humorous look at sex and witchcraft. The upshot of it was, PF9 kept bringing me books on the occult, which I locked in a cupboard until he returned, when I handed them back. Like most people, I regarded witchcraft as evil, while knowing nothing about it.

          One day, PF9 put into my hands a book which I read without hesitation, and with a feeling that this was mere revision of something I already knew. It was called Earth Magic, and everything in that book I had thought, or done, or instinctively known about, all my life.

         "Is this what its all about?" I asked when he returned, "Why didnt you say?" I signed up at once to the pagan life, being initiated by PF9, but not until after being set and passing certain tests. These proved I was an instinctive witch.

          "What do I do now?" I asked on conclusion of the initiation. Witches do have a sense of purpose, and want to work to help their fellow man and woman, "wiccan" means "wise one" and we were the shamans of the tribe in the old days.

          I worked with PF9, and the things we achieved are outlined in the book mentioned above. He was my High Priest, I his High Priestess, so we worked as a team. However, there was no sexual relationship, and when Wolfram came into my life, I felt I could no longer work with John as we had been doing. Wolf asked to have my beliefs explained to him, and thought that he could sign up to that. So I initiated him (initiation is always man-woman-man as wicca maintains a balance) and we began working together. PF9 had to go and find another priestess.

          Although in wicca the female is supreme, and the High Priest subordinate, Wolf was a valued coven leader, patient and kind with those who needed instruction, as he was with other people in trouble in everyday life. He was also a great spiritual support to me, often intervening in dreams when I was having trouble with unruly spirits. These sometimes linger after a person has been for a tarot reading - if a bad spirit has attached to them, this often becomes detached during the reading, remaining here after the person has left. It would then be up to me to take it on and defeat it in dreamland that night.  If ever I needed help, something would wake Wolf and he would wake me, thereby loosening the hold the spirit had, and banishing it.

Shinto Warrior

Wolf also had his own spirituality, which I was not part of. This stemmed from his long practice and study of martial arts and the spirituality of the warrior. He would sometimes ask, at a wiccan ceremony, or at a private ceremony which he and I might do together, if he could perform his own form of worship with the sword. The sword is the sacred symbol of the warrior, and only the person to whom it belongs is allowed to draw it from its sheath.

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On the following pages I will speak more about our spiritual experiences

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